PUSH me. I DARE you.

NOTE: Remember, I draw these pictures with my THUMB. So don't judge me.

My older sister and I have ALWAYS been inseparable.

Don't laugh. It's true.

We either did everything together like twins.....

or we were passionately beating the living Asian out of each other --

and it took all of my mother's strength to pull us apart.

My sister has always pushed me "to do better".

Both figuratively and literally.

For example, she would PUSH me to confront my fear of heights...

by PUSHING me out of a tree.

I'm still not sure how that was supposed to help me.

And FYI, if a little girl is terrified of clowns, the WORST thing you can do is push her into a clown.

To everyone else, a clown looks like this:

To ME, a clown looks like this:

See the difference? Yeah.

In life, some people need to be PUSHED. They need that extra "motivation" before they actually act upon a thought.

Obviously, there is a ginormous difference between self-determination and motivation from an outside source.

SO, if you're the type of person who needs to be told to take action, then consider this blog post to be your PUSH. This blog post is also for myself. There are a lot of things on my mind that I need to figure out... and I hope that this will be the beginning of the end of my problems.

I know that I still have my whole life ahead of me... but this is how it starts. What I do today affects how tomorrow starts and where it goes. The present can mend the past and set up the future.

Don't waste today thinking about what you'll do tomorrow.

Tomorrow will always eventually become today.

Everyone has SOMETHING that they need to realize.

They're a difference between knowing what your dream should be and actually pursuing your dream. Just because someone has a call doesn't mean that he/she will answer it.

If you want something, GO GET IT. Don't just watch it with a heavy heart. The worst thing that you can say is nothing at all. Does that even make sense? Oh well. It doesn't matter. Life itself doesn't always make sense, but that doesn't mean that it stops or that time slows down.

And if something is simply out of your reach, then maybe it wasn't meant for you in the first place. I personally believe that God has an amazing plan for each and every person. I often wrestle with the thought of being a part of a bigger picture. I feel so blind and lost at times. I beg for light and guidance. I feel so alone and torn.

But I know that God is always here. God never said that our journeys would be easy. In face, he said quite the opposite.

Sometimes... you just love and treasure something or someone so much that you're willing to do everything to make sure that it or he/she is happy. Even if it means that you sacrifice a part of yourself. You give yourself away for the sake of something or someone else.

"If you love something, set it free. If it loves you too, it'll come back."

I both agree and disagree with this statement:

I agree in the sense that if you truly loved someone, you wouldn't try to control him/her or force him/her to act/feel a certain way.

I disagree, because if you love something with all of your heart... the LAST thing you want to do is let it go.

I agree that letting go can be a test of true feelings.

I disagree, because the perfect moment may not happen again.

Do you see this? I can't even agree with myself. That's how hard it is to define statements like this. Everyone is entitled to his/her own opinion.

I can encourage you to do or choose certain things, but I can't actually choose anything for you.

The moment you decide to act in the present -- the moment you decide what to do by yourself, you have succeeded. What happens after that may vary, the the initial leap of action is the same. YOU decided. YOU chose, not anyone else. When you become free, you start to live.

One of my favorite speakers of all time said this to me (along with 500 + other girls):

"There is a saying out there that says, 'There is no time like the present.' If I could, I would change that statement to, 'There is no time but the present.' This is how we must live." - Amy Piper

I hope that you will hold this statement close to your heart like I do. I more than likely interpret this quote differently than you do. HOWEVER, it can still serve a purpose. It can still inspire you. It can mold itself to fit within your life.

I know that I'm just a teenage girl, but I'm always here for you -- no matter who you are.